I had a fight at obscene-thirty in the morning. Maybe it was because I was alone in the hotel room, and felt vulnerable. Or maybe it was because I'd had my breath taken away with an insult two days before, and was fighting to hear the word of God over hurtful words. Or maybe it was just that I held the weight of 120 women in my heart who had come to us for hope.
Whatever the reason, I was in a fight with the enemy of my soul at about 5:30 in the morning and I was determined to win.
I'd spent the day before telling mamas not to give up...to keep fighting for their children. During my Hope for the Weary Mom talk with Stacey Thacker, I'd shared the story of how God told me my children needed someone to fight for them, and that He'd chosen that person to be me. It's a powerful story...I know it is because it's one of my most tweeted posts here...and one that He reminds me of every time I throw my hands up in the air and want to quit.
But there I was, lying in the bed, feeling the temptation to quit fighting.
I've fought the fiery darts of the enemy for a lifetime—fear of being hurt, fear of rejection, fear of failure. But the difference between now and ten years ago is that I know what to do with it.
It occurred to me though, as I laid there in the bed telling the enemy where to go, that I hadn't told those mamas who filled up the chairs, packed the floor, sat in the closet, and spilled out the doors into the hallway during our session, why they can keep fighting.
It's one thing to tell her to keep fighting. But when a mama is having her moment...when she's done, deflated, depressed, and ready to denounce motherhood altogether...she needs to know why she can. Because it doesn't feel like she can (<<---Tweet that!)
Why can a mama keep fighting for her children, even when every ounce of her fight is gone?
She can fight for her children, because God is fighting for her.
"And Moses said to the people, “Fear not, stand firm, and see the salvation of the Lord, which he will work for you today. For the Egyptians whom you see today, you shall never see again. The Lord will fight for you, and you have only to be silent.” Exodus 14:13-14 ESV
Do you remember what it felt like to have your mom or dad cup your face in their hands and tell you they believed in you? Or maybe a good friend just looked you in the eyes one day and said, "I've got your back."
It's kind of like that, only much better, because this time, the person who's on your side, fighting for you in ways you can't even understand, is God Almighty—the one who loved you so much He let His Son suffer and die in your place.
- When you're convinced that thing you just did is going to be the thing your daughter talks about with her therapist later in life, He's fighting for you, giving you strength to go ask for forgiveness.
- When you can't imagine going back in that house, back to the noise, back to the bickering, back to the same thing every single day...He's fighting for you, giving you energy to open the door.
- When that loved one sucker-punches you with words meant to crucify, not edify, He's fighting for you, making His word and His heart available to help you choose the truth.
- When you're scared and vulnerable, He's fighting for you, protecting you within His will.
God is on your side. He loves you. You're the apple of His eye. He's got your back.
So you keep fighting, mama, because the God of the universe is fighting for you.
Pray with me, friend?
Lord, sometimes I want to quit fighting altogether. I don't know why life has to be so hard, or why people have to be so mean, but I know You're there fighting with me, for me, and in me to give me hope and the strength to be victorious. Help me to never give up. In Jesus' Name, amen.
P.S. I stole that photo from Stacey's IG account, but I know she doesn't care. And yes, we've been told we look a little alike in it. We think it's the glasses.